So you’d never think that a woman trying for a baby would be so happy to see her period.
But here I am.
If you’ve seen my previous post about my ongoing frustration, frantic googling and endless questions about whether or not I’m pregnant, then you’ll know that I’ve been living in limbo for 11 days. Being so late for your period but getting negative HPT results really messes with your head. You just don’t know where you stand.
This wasn’t helped by the Dr’s appointment I had on Monday. I was requesting a blood test to see if I was pregnant as the HPTs were coming up negative. If I was looking at this situation from the outside, I’d probably be thinking jeez woman, chill out and be patient. And I totally get why. But that is actually really hard at the time. I stopped drinking and was making changes to my life just in case, but if I’m honest, I didn’t want to have to do those things unnecessarily and I just wanted peace of mind. Not only that, but you know how difficult it is to get a Dr’s appointment on the NHS nowadays so it is always better to get in as soon as you can.
Anyway, his advice was this. Take another HPT in a week if you haven’t come on your period. Don’t drink – it never hurt anyone to stop anyway. Simple as that. Don’t get me wrong, he was a lovely Dr and was clearly right, but I still sat there feeling like an melodramatic twat.
And in the end, I had nothing to worry about anyway; yesterday I came on. I nearly cried.
Obviously I would have loved to have been pregnant but it means I’m no longer in limbo and can concentrate on trying again this month. I’ve got something to aim for, to focus, something I can plan (I have to plan EVERYTHING!). I think my body has just been readjusting now that the pill is out of my system.
So, a quick list of the positives I can take from this experience:
- I’ve learned to trust my body – sometimes it just needs to do its thing
- Husband is away this week anyway so I couldn’t ask for better timing
- If I’m late again, maybe I won’t freak out about it as much because I’ll know it’s normal
- I can drink cocktails
Right now I’m pretty happy. I can carry on living my life normally and get back to enjoying such an exciting time in my life.
Goodbye limbo, hello Aunt Flo!