One year on…

A year ago, Husband and I decided to come off the pill and start a family. We were happy. We were excited. We were ready.

I didn’t think it would happen straight away but I was hopeful that within a year we would be pregnant. But it just wasn’t meant to be. I’ve had regular periods, late periods and no periods at all. I’ve been diagnosed with polycystic ovaries, I’ve watched friends have babies and celebrated with them and I’ve cried buckets of tears.

This year has tested me in so many ways and I’ve learned a lot about myself:

  1. I’m a tough cookie. I’m finding this hard but I’m still going and still smiling.
  2. I haven’t got time for stress. I’ve become a little more brutal with what I tolerate in life. If it is stressing me out or making me feel shit, I don’t want it. Simple.
  3. I have some epic friends. TTC is often something that people don’t talk about because it can add unwanted pressure. But when I have talked about it, my friends have been pretty awesome. Its amazing how much you value the support of people around you when going through something like this.
  4. I really really really want to be a Mum. I’m now faced with the fact that I’m not going to become a Mum easily and that is hard to accept. When you’re so ready for something and your control over getting it is taken away, it soon becomes clear just how much it means to you.
  5. I can’t always get shit done. I’ve always been a ‘go out and get it’ kind of girl. Car, house, job, even Husband! But this time is different. It is out of my hands, and that sucks.

So although I wish I wasn’t experiencing this, it has made me realise things about myself and I can only be grateful for that. I have to look for the positive.

K x

 

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8 thoughts on “One year on…

  1. boop1761 says:

    Took me 2 to finally get pregnant with mine. Like you i thought it would happen pretty quickly at first I had no idea how hard it was going to be.
    I personally think that we appreciated it so much more when we did finally get pregnant because it took so long and was such a hard journey. More than others who got pregnant first time without much effort or hardship. Stay strong and keep trying it’ll all be worth it.

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    • readytomum says:

      Thank you. It’s good to hear other stories because it keeps me hopeful so thank you for sharing. I didn’t think it would be this tough but the best things are worth waiting for I suppose 😊

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  2. BYOBaby says:

    I’m right there with you! It’s been a year for us this month too – I’m still trying to grasp how that happened so quickly. There’s unfortunately not much I can offer you except for the hope that this year you’ll get to make your own pregnancy announcement 💕

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  3. Jade says:

    It took 8 years before I got pregnant with our first. It was only when we in essence gave up trying that I fell pregnant. Hang in there, it will happen when it’s meant to happen x

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